In my experience, we always are afraid, afraid of how we’ll be in different situations. We try a lot of good and bad stuff, but then you start doing the bad things to get noticed. You don’t like it but you feel you have to do it. Sometimes you feel you might not make it doing good. That’s when you’re stuck with not much light, without some kind of life.
You have to be there to help other people because they can’t break something–the bad–until they understand the life/light. That’s where you can help: to help others be clear about the difference between the light and the dark.